Tonight I needed a moment. Just a moment. So I put a movie on for Honour, wrapped baby in her carrier, grabbed a Popsicle from the deep freeze and stepped onto our deck.
The evening sun hit my face, the breeze rushed past me (inevitably tossing my stray hairs into my dessert) and I took a deep breath. I listened to the birds singing their bedtime tune, watched the leaves twist and scarfed that dairy free Popsicle down guilt free.
My back sore from nursing babe all day, my eyes stinging from the occasional bathroom break downs and my mind tired beyond compare after a day of toddler battles including the 2 hr disagreement surrounding nap time. I was ready for that breath.
As I stood there for probably less than 5 minutes I reflected on the day. I knew where all the difficult moments had happened. Had been replaying my responses to everything over in my head to see where I could have ‘parented better’ but I didn’t go back to those. No, not during this beautiful calm moment. I pondered on the lovely.
The early morning park visit where Honour happily played with a less than alive worm for 45 minutes. The moments he would look at me and giggle as he got more wet than anticipated during this over cast day at the splash pad. The sword fight we engaged in…me trying to call dibs on the longer sword as he doesn’t have much sword awareness yet and it’s a bit safer for me…but him telling me that I would probably like the machete. Decision made. The darling smiles I received when I came into the sight line of my baby girl after placing her in the car seat while I quickly threw on some clothes before my wonderful cup of morning coffee. The long nap she took while I was working to have her older brother sleep as peacefully as she. And finally the heart smile and deep relief I felt when I heard, before I saw, Ben drive up to our gate after overtime.
That is what I need to dwell on when all has calmed come evening time. What a perfect moment to remind me that scripture isn’t just feel good verses…it has meaning and application in our lives daily. Dwell on what is lovely.
Today had lovely moments. That popsicle was lovely, as was the moments I shared above and as will the glass of dark red wine I will appreciate later on.
I determine to dwell on the lovely…as hard as it is during the difficult. It is worth it.
Oh…and those few minutes? I came in to find this:
And my boy doing this:
A marshmallow may have been captured and devoured…
Oh well…it was a lovely part to his day I’m sure 🙂