The weather is incredible and my spirit is climbing. The past few days have been hard dealing with some physical sickness as well as working though past spiritual sickness that still rears it’s ugly head occasionally. It gets me awfully down when my past failings come to the surface and I again have to battle the shame and anger at myself. But, the Lord is faithful and He dangles that rope into the pit I find myself in and then it is my turn to chose to grab it.
I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the LORD
and put their trust in him. – Psalm 40:1-3
Don’t dwell in your shame or frustration. Your heart needs to be continually broken over your sin and in full repentance all the time but with it comes strength. Be broken but do not sit in self pity.
So here I sit, awake, I have had a tea, the Lord has been encouraging me and I look outside and see the sun shining down on the fall Maple trees. Life here will always be broken, difficult and tiring but our Father will provide you with blessings and beauty that still shine through a sinful world.