The past week and a half have been strange, but relaxing, without the constant need to study the 2 inch textbook titled NCLEX. The first days after Virginia were spent doing loads of laundry (pun intended), giving the house a massive overhaul clean and putting all my study books/notes back into the bookshelf. Since then it has been a trip to Sudbury for a show and planning for another 6 coming up over the next month. With my weekends being extremely busy I sometimes feel guilty for having free time during the week. This is where my lesson comes in.
I have recently been listening to John Macarthurs sermons on God’s High Calling for Women. This is obviously a touchy subject with the feminism movement moving into the church and I think that, for a lack of a better term, this is selfish. Just as men were not created to bear children there is a certain role that women were created for that utilizes their strengths and makes them the most successful in the Lord. There are arenas that women were created to battle in and others where we are not. This is straight from the Word and as I see it beyond question. With this being said the Lord has truly placed a peace in my heart about my current ‘lack of working’ situation.
I struggled with this for some time as I saw myself as lazy or not living up to my potential. I see now that this is only because I have grown up in a world that places women in the same light as men. Our usefulness is compared to our husband’s, who works outside the home daily. Women though can ‘work’ in the home. Not only are their the physical needs of the home but the Lord is revealing to me my role in the spiritual work. I will one day be a mother to our children and my ‘work’ at the moment needs to be preparing my heart and my mind for the responsibility I will eventually hold.
These past weeks have been spent pouring over sermons, searching for the truth that will one day be questioned of me by my children. What a responsibility it is to raise a child, a human, one who will have their own choice to accept or reject the gift Jesus Christ offers? If my heart is not prepared as it can be, I know I will never be completely prepared but that is where the Lord steps in, then I have already failed my children and my husband.
I am not ashamed to make it my job to learn, grow and prepare myself to be a mother. I have a season right now where it is quiet, I can take hours to indulge and yet still keep our house a home and spend time with my husband. How ignorant of me to think that seeking the Lord for our children was not as worthy of my time as finding a job nursing.
Let the Lord teach you, do not be ashamed of your role as a woman as it truly is a high, honoured calling. Prepare yourself for the role that you as a woman have the opportunity to partake in. Do not take it lightly, as lives are literally on the line.